A Different Dream
It took me a while to figure out how this dream was different. My typical dream involving my dad starts as a shouting match and ends in physical violence. This time my dad was being a jerk like always, and it still woke me up. But I didn’t feel afraid. Instead of waking up relieved to discover I was dreaming, I woke up wishing it had been real.
I was at a banquet of sorts; talking to a professor I work with. He told me he had gotten in trouble a few years ago for taking some computer equipment home with him. Curious about the situation, I started asking for details only to be interrupted by my father. “Oh Hush!” I tried to ignore him and go on with my questions, but I started having trouble speaking. I was stuttering and having trouble thinking of the words I wanted to use. I asked what components the professor had actually taken home. And again my father interrupted.
“You don’t even know what you’re talking about.”
“Actually, I do know what I’m talking about. Can you just be quiet and let me finish my conversation?”
“I’ll be back in a minute, and then we’re leaving.”
“What? Did you forget that I’m an adult now? I don’t have to leave just because you wish it.”
He left, and I was able to finish my conversation with the professor. True to his word my father returned, with a fishing pole. In reality my father is about 3 inches taller than me. In this dream he was well over a foot taller.
“We’re leaving.”
“No. I’m not leaving with you. I don’t even like you. Do you have any idea how often I dream about strangling you. You’re not welcome in my life. I asked you to stay away, and now you’ll never see me again. This is your fault; a result of your actions.”
Here’s the odd part. Instead of this turning into a brawl, he became teary eyed and appeared to be sad.
The fishing pole is kind of a weird element. My dad never liked to fish really. I don’t recall him ever taking my brothers or me fishing, but apparently he takes my nephew fishing now and then.
I usually don’t have dreams or nightmares involving my parents unless I have some contact with them, but I read something really interesting yesterday. It’s something I hope to assimilate in connection to my parents.
"Seek not the acceptance of others lest you make yourself their slave." - Tao De Ching
I was at a banquet of sorts; talking to a professor I work with. He told me he had gotten in trouble a few years ago for taking some computer equipment home with him. Curious about the situation, I started asking for details only to be interrupted by my father. “Oh Hush!” I tried to ignore him and go on with my questions, but I started having trouble speaking. I was stuttering and having trouble thinking of the words I wanted to use. I asked what components the professor had actually taken home. And again my father interrupted.
“You don’t even know what you’re talking about.”
“Actually, I do know what I’m talking about. Can you just be quiet and let me finish my conversation?”
“I’ll be back in a minute, and then we’re leaving.”
“What? Did you forget that I’m an adult now? I don’t have to leave just because you wish it.”
He left, and I was able to finish my conversation with the professor. True to his word my father returned, with a fishing pole. In reality my father is about 3 inches taller than me. In this dream he was well over a foot taller.
“We’re leaving.”
“No. I’m not leaving with you. I don’t even like you. Do you have any idea how often I dream about strangling you. You’re not welcome in my life. I asked you to stay away, and now you’ll never see me again. This is your fault; a result of your actions.”
Here’s the odd part. Instead of this turning into a brawl, he became teary eyed and appeared to be sad.
The fishing pole is kind of a weird element. My dad never liked to fish really. I don’t recall him ever taking my brothers or me fishing, but apparently he takes my nephew fishing now and then.
I usually don’t have dreams or nightmares involving my parents unless I have some contact with them, but I read something really interesting yesterday. It’s something I hope to assimilate in connection to my parents.
"Seek not the acceptance of others lest you make yourself their slave." - Tao De Ching
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